Wednesday July 14 2010

DREAM: With Zach Gehring and a girl that is only familiar to me in the dream but not in waking life. We’re leaving some place near the beach. I notice a small lighthouse with a lot of glass doors and windows built into it. “Wait guys! I want to check this place out.” After getting closer to it, we see that it’s surrounded by a wall and gate with security cameras. I just keep staring at it – looking at the glass and the stairs with a strong desire to explore it but feeling stifled and disappointed.

Around 3:30 p.m. getting out of bed.

Breakfast: Toasted Bagel with Butter and Strawberry Jam. Orange Juice. Zinc, Vitamin E, Alfalfa Grain.

Sitting at my desk eating my bagel. I decided to use the plastic Pocahontas plate – staring at the cartoon Indian princess. It’s you. I’ve always thought it was you. Pain still fresh on my mind.


Margot visits for a little bit before she has to work.

“I’m afraid.”

She feels bombarded with the damage she’s caused to others.

Lunch: Egg Salad Sandwich with Lettuce and Tomato. Salt N Vinegar Chips. Honey Green Tea. Banana.

Musicplayer practice at the storage unit with Chris and Kal.

The new song “Fairfarren” is sounding like a Rock N Roll song to me now.

Eating Watermelon. I’m sitting at my desk and Ambrotious pops up on my lap nudging his head under my head and being sweet the way cats should be and providing companionship, what animals were meant to do.

Elliott comes over and we walk to the basketball courts across the street. We shoot the ball and play a game of “Around the World”. We figure out how to switch the baseball field lights on. “Turn them on, I dare you! Just do it!” He hits the ‘START’ button. “Elliott! They’re coming on! Turn it off quick!” He hits the ‘STOP’ button. The cops are nearby having pulled somebody over. We walk away quickly.

Dinner: Carrots and Ranch. Spaghetti and Garlic Bread.

Jamil and Roma are sitting on the couch with their shirts off. Elliott and I decide to join in on the no-shirt party.

James and Brittany show up and we conduct the judging for the word label contest from the last Show N Tell.

Cleaning the bathroom thoroughly.

Margot pops in from work. We hear the sound of something falling in the living room and find Ambrotious knocked off the plastic globe from the top of his cat tower to make room for himself.

Sitting on the red couch talking heavy to light conversation. Discovering in myself a deep and genuine love for her – my eyes watering up because of it. But both of us have our skepticism and are still reserved. Daylight is among us. She’s leaving now and I actually find it in me to say those words that you say to someone when you know for sure what they mean to you. I surprise myself…standing there with the door cracked watching her walk off to her car in that hot wet and humid early morning air.

Sleep around 7:15 a.m.

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