DREAM: Playing the video game DOOM but I’m actually inside the game and it’s real to me. In a medium sized room of the church I used to go to – thin blue carpet and folding chairs scattered about. I’m invincible so I can’t get hurt but I still play with the mind set that I could feel damage. The DOOM monsters start appearing everywhere: the imps, the cacodemons, the hell barons, the zombie men, etc. One that I’m not familiar with pops it’s disgusting red goat-like head with intense horns out of the ceiling. I have a rocket launcher and start shooting repeatedly at the thing before he even has a chance to attack. Eventually, I destroy all the monsters except for a few zombie men roaming around. I have knowledge that this level of the game is not supposed to end after you kill everything so I’m stuck here in this room not knowing what to do.
2:30 p.m. waking up.
Missed a lot of phone calls.
Breakfast: Toasted Bagel with Butter and Strawberry Jam. Orange Juice. Zinc, Biotin, Alfalfa Grain.
I take Art to China Wok to meet the boss and show him the ropes because he’s going to take my shift on Saturday.
Picking up two couch surfers from England.
Eating Watermelon with them and getting acquainted.
Lunch: Grilled Cheese with Tomato. Salt N Vinegar Chips. Honey Green Tea.
Watching The Five Obstructions.
Cleaning up the yard and the porch.
Eating a Peach.
Trips to the store for a few groceries and a basketball.
Storage unit recording guitar scratch tracks and writing songs.
“All the time you are mine. All the time you are mine.”
Dinner: Pad Thai with Chicken and Onions, and Broccoli, Green Beans, and Carrots.
I put on Being John Malcovich for background entertainment.
Roma is hanging fish on wires around the side of the house.
Margot is standing outside in the driveway…upset about a recent conversation she had with the other guy.
Sitting on the couch bouncing down the guitar scratch tracks for the studio tomorrow.
Talking with her in my room.
She is reminded of past inflictions in her mind and decides to be verbal about it. Feeling attacked and not edified I go on a lecture about believing in the person I am now and how important it is for us to build up trust again.
“Now is what’s important. You have to keep reminding yourself that.”
I put on the Hooverphonic CD and we make love to the sounds of an intimate energy. Yes, and it feels more like making love rather than just sex cause there’s a big difference. I am now a beast of love, an animal with a desire for nothing but the taste of true ecstasy and moments of beauty.
Eating a bowl of Frosted Shredded Wheat.
Shower.
Sleep 5:30 a.m.
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