Tuesday April 3 2012


DREAM: On a getaway in a car with two other people, maybe Kelley Hoyer and an unfamiliar guy. We turn the corner and somehow dive into a lake. It turns into a ferocious underwater battle after we swallow these pills that inspire an unnatural aggression and also make us stronger. Streamlining and twirling at dark depths. Nobody really wins because our strength is matched.

Later, in another dream, I’m describing to another person the underwater battle detail by detail.

I’m in Elisa’s bedroom in her bed under the covers. Her, Eric, and Tim are also in the room. Elisa runs around the room laughing at herself because she’s not wearing a bra. I feel warm and I’m waiting for sexual activity. Then, a Doberman runs into the room vying for attention. His skin is made of a teal quilt material. Elisa is uninterested because she might be allergic.

Me: “But look, his skin is quilted!”


Getting up out of her bed around 11 a.m.

Egg and Cheese English Muffin. Orange Juice. Zinc (50 mg).

Vaginasaurs practice at Stephanie’s place. Running into Chad Hugo of N.E.R.D. He used to be their neighbor and apparently is tight with Stef’s mom, visiting when he’s in the area. Stef and I find it sort of comical that Chad Hugo and her mom hang out.

Peanut Butter Sandwich. Tortilla Chips with Fresh Guacamole. Aloe Vera Drink.

Helping D’Andrea move out all her things to her parent’s house down the street. It takes a few car trips. Her mom is there and says to me, “You are so sweet.”


Baking a cake.

Cooking leftover Lentils with Broccoli, Onions, and Kale. And, I don’t know why, but I decided it’d be a good idea to add one tiny habanero to make it “a little spicy”. I’ll regret this in ten minutes after I can’t stop coughing and blowing my nose and dabbing my eyes. Now my upper lip and nose feel like they’re on fire. I attempt to take a bite but this is completely uneatable. Adding some Sugar and Sour Cream to tone it down. As well I wrap up some of it in bread. But it’s no use. There’s no way I’m finishing the whole meal like this. I resign to eating pieces of Chocolate Yellow Cake with Coconut Milk.

Watching Julia (2008).

Writing and thinking.

Margot calls me with steamy intentions...

Me: “I guess I better get it while it’s hot cause...”

Her: “...the stove cools off quick in this house!”


She comes over all seductive in manner and with a smile that says, I’ve got power over you. From the stool to the chair to the bed she talks dirty to me and I respond boyishly. Sexual satisfaction is what I needed...what she needed.


She leaves for her house. I stay and continue my writing and thinking and chores.

Back to Margot’s to join her in bed as I offered to help do some early morning car things with her.

Sleep around 2:30 a.m.

[i] Sarah and Stef. Image by me.

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