Thursday June 24 2021


In my bedroom. There’s a tall tropical plant that needs some TLC and especially water. I try to take care of it but there’s an unruly amount of bugs infested in the plant. I discover a pair of human legs under the edge of my mattress. It’s understood to be my mom’s and it’s understood I placed them there some time ago but I don’t remember. I determine that the bugs may be in my room because of the decomposing legs. However, they don’t look too far along. Roland’s girlfriend, Jenna, is in here too discussing something related to their band.



Waking up around noon.


Oatmeal Breakfast Bar. Tea.


Working out at the gym with Vlad – focusing on triceps and biceps.



Scrambled Eggs. Spinach. Toast with Butter and Jam. Salt n Vinegar Chips with Avocado. Coffee.


Teaching lessons at Music Makers. It’s one of those days where a bunch of rescheduling takes place causing a lot of stress on the front desk.


After all the lessons are done I take a few deep breaths and catch up on all that happened at the desk. Rebecca comes out of her last lesson and helps me sort through it. As I’m leaving Ana is blowing up my phone while she’s at band practice, which I don’t understand. We share our “locations” on the phone so she’s probably wondering what I’m doing at Music Makers so late. There’s so much that’s been unraveling lately in regards to her paranoia and insecurity. And I’m really becoming disillusioned by it all. I’m literally just living my life, running my business, and trying to keep things going. There’s no reason for her to ever not trust me. Either way, this creates some stress on my part the rest of the night.


Making a quick dinner back home: Chic Pea Pasta with Sauce and Kale.


Meeting up with Josh and Josiah for an actual Bamm Bamm practice.

I walk into the unit, “Is this really happening? I can’t believe it!”

We’ve been struggling to make a practice take place cause there’s a house show in a few weekends. We brush off the cobwebs from the songs we did last show.


Sardines and Crackers.


Later on, chatting with Ana in her bedroom about the day and coming to some terms on things.


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