Wednesday August 7 2019

Waking up at 10:30 a.m.

 

Oatmeal with Cinnamon, Strawberries, Maple Syrup, and Almond Milk. English Breakfast Tea.

 

Mom started her surgery at 9. That tumor is coming out of her neck no matter what today. Her friend Wanda keeps me updated and says the doctors are taking their time to make sure it comes out properly.

 

Meanwhile, Ana and I join dad and Patty at Aloha Snacks for a bite to eat. At WRV we go on a search for a particular decal with sandals on it that Patty wants.

 

Teaching a few lessons at Music Makers. Rachel holds down the front desk.

 

Scrambled Eggs. Cabbage. Toast with Butter and Jam. Potato Chips.

 

At 9 p.m. I have to coach a rehearsal for the adult band behind the drum set. The whole band is here, which was a rarity. We get a lot of done.

 

Back home. Ana and I get into an argument over something (or nothing) that happened today at Aloha Snacks. While sitting at the table she claims I was gawking (and had a glitter in my eyes) over some girl that worked there. This is crazy cause I’m just sitting there doing nothing but talking with my dad and sometimes looking around at all the people. It all boils down to trust. I have to write about this cause it comes up a lot in this relationship. I have never cheated on her and have never given her any reason to not trust me whatsoever. And yet, she doesn’t trust me. Being put on a guilt trip never feels great and especially over nothing. Things that happened to her in her past definitely connect with the issues we have in our relationship. And the same can be said on my end. I go on this diatribe about everything. I really hope we can figure out how to be healthy together. I definitely don’t wanna be in a relationship that self-destructs.

 

Catching up on business and chores.

 

 

Sleep 4 a.m.

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