Wednesday February 12 2014

and the long nights surround me[i]

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Sitting along the side of 22nd Street where I-264 connects. I've got a bag of dirty workout clothes and my Boston fern. The leaves of the fern appear to be wilted. Time to go. I hop into an old pickup truck with two guys. They want me to drive but I'm in the backseat. It's explained to me that I can steer the wheel back here. There seems to be two steering wheels, one in the front seat and the one I'm holding. We drive forward, swerving left and right. I do my best to protect the plant while keeping us on course. The guy in the front is also steering making it difficult to stay straight. It becomes a game between him and I.

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Waking up at 12:36 p.m.

Strawberry Honey Bunches of Oats with Almond Milk.

Orange Juice with Plant Protein.

An hour and a half workout at The Escape. I watch the snow start to fall through the glass windows while running on the treadmill.

Egg Sandwich with Mayo and Tomato. Blue Tortilla Chips with Salsa and Hummus. Honey Black Tea.

Dark Chocolate Powerberries.

Part-time shift at China Wok – it's extremely busy tonight – shuffling orders right and left. The snowy rain has something to do with it. Some customers had to wait over an hour for their food. I feel bad but there's really nothing I can do about it except just drive and do my job efficiently. After three and a half hours I've successfully delivered twenty orders. That's just in three and a half hours! To give it a little perspective, on an average day I might deliver 28 or 30 orders, and that's working a full 11-hour day.

Vegetable Soup. Shrimp Toast. Garlic Spinach and Rice.

Watching Hancock (2008).

Dutched Cocoa Cookies with Coffee.

Ana has more thoughts to share via Facebook message...
"Robert, on my drive home last night.. I was feeling good. I thought about how I said 'I hated this' as I was leaving your house... after I came back to kiss and hug you before walking to my car. I thought about how you said 'don't hate just love'.. I do believe in that. Hating only leads to more endless hate. Love only leads to an open and happy mind. As I was driving home.. I felt this good feeling that I don't really know how to describe. I remember feeling this same feeling around the first month we started seeing each other. I know that you are very genuine in everything that you say, and I'm just glad that I went with my gut feeling and told you I was interested in you! You have and always been consistent with me. I admire that in you, and I want you know to know I have a high respect for you.
I'm sorry that I always tend to have this presumption that little things you say/do are signs of negative things. Thank you for being so understanding to me and so patient and for always welcoming me to your home and sharing everything with me. You are very important to me, and I want to say again that I'm happy because I just am. I feel closer to you as the days go by. I know that I can trust you. I already knew I could because I felt it already even before I started knowing more about you. I sensed something special about you because I have been around bad energy.. you have this special energy around you.. and it's a warm energy."

Fiddling on the guitar while the rain lightly taps on my windowsill.

Sleep 4 a.m.

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