Saturday June 27 2015
Waking up at 10:40 a.m.
Irish Oatmeal with Cinnamon, Maple Syrup, Chia Seeds, Blueberries, and Almond Milk. Iced Coffee with Cream and Honey.
All day shift at China Wok.
Rain off and on all day.
Grilled PB&J with Bee Pollen. Potato Chips. Honey Green Tea.
Listening to a new podcast by The Art of Manliness about taking micro-adventures and depression. Here are some of the things I took from it...
Low mood is healthy in that it gives you time to grieve or reassess your situation.
You don't need to make being happy a goal in your life; happiness is a byproduct of pursuing things that are meaningful in your life already.
I need to start implementing micro-adventures into my life like I did when I was younger.
I've been gradually coming to a decision about whether or not to resign from being a delivery driver. To make a long story short I'm going to make some major life changes by focusing on more meaningful ways to make a living – like helping out with the rock school at Music Makers, getting more students, becoming a better musician and doing paid gigs around town, and making time to design plans for the future. If I don't act now then nothing is going to change. I can choose to do the same thing I've been doing for years or do something different. Meanwhile, I'm compiling a list of things I will miss/not miss as a delivery driver at China Wok.
Off work and back home.
Leftover Chicken with Broccoli and Rice.
Watching Rosewater (2013).
Chitchatting with Ana in her room. She's got her wet hair wrapped up in a towel like the Chiquita banana woman as I like to compare her to jokingly. She talks about how she gives all her energy to everybody all day long at her two jobs and by the time she gets home to me I don't get the same positive energy. It's a similar story for me. But we kind of make light of the situation.
Me: "So basically I don't get your fully realized self – I get your lazy self."
We share our thoughts for the day...
In relation to her (and anyone's really) tendency to compare her success to others and what she sees online.
Me: "All that social media and social networks...that's not reality! People post all these things they're doing because they're proud of them. But nobody posts all the mundane in-between things that go on. It's just...a display of humanity! It's not real humanity."
Sleep 3:30 a.m.
[i] Image by me.
Posted by James Robert Smith at 12:51 PM