Saturday September 20 2014

Dave Kinsey[i]

Waking up at 10:35 a.m.

Honey Crunch n Oats with Blueberries and Almond Milk.

All day shift at China Wok.

Honey Crisp Apple.

Scrambled Eggs. Blueberry Bagel with Vegan Cream Cheese. Potato Chips. Honey Green Tea.

Ana slips by the restaurant while I'm out on a delivery and leaves me a gift: a small purple tin filled with homemade granola – it even has a transparent lid to see what's inside without opening. She comes back later on and sits in the passenger seat during my deliveries. We have a good time whenever we get in a car together – criticizing, laughing, poking fun, etc. And sometimes we touch on sensitive subjects. Today she mentioned how she is seriously (this time) thinking about cutting her hair up to shoulder length. This is a huge decision for her as the length of her hair has been at the center of her identity for years. Before today I wasn't aware how important and symbolic her long hair actually is. She confesses how short hair represents a bad time in her younger life and that's why she grew it out in the first place. She gets a little teary eyed when talking about it.

Me: "I know this is a challenge for you. But it's an opportunity to fight your past and be free."

KIND Dark Chocolate Cashew Cherry Bar.

Eating some of Ana's homemade Granola to tide me over till the end.

Off work and back home.

Tofu with Broccoli, Onions, and Rice in Garlic Sauce.

Watching The Trip (2010).

Ana texts me, "I want to be free and continue my progress of breaking away and breaking down walls I've created. I am scheduling an appointment [for the haircut]. I don’t want to hide behind my hair. You're right it will grow. Life is constantly changing and growing and I must stay open to changes and growth because I want to be free. Robert, I love you. You're one of the best people in my life."

Orange Juice.


Sleep 3:30 a.m.

[i] Dave Kinsey.

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