Tuesday May 21 2013

Hope Kills. Source unknown.[i]

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At the house. For some reason my old roommates from 1623, Kyle and Elaina, are living here. It’s understood that nobody sees them very often as they keep to themselves inside their bedroom. On this particular night there’s a heated argument between them. Elaina requests that I bring her some cinnamon to sprinkle over her carpet. I don’t really understand the purpose but it seems really important to her. Kyle, out of frustration, decides to grab the vacuum cleaner and vacuum my bedroom.

Puzzled I ask, “What are you doing?”

Kyle: “I just need to do this.”

So Josiah and I pick up all the stuff in my room to make way for the vacuum. Kyle eagerly rolls the vacuum across the floor. Later, I’m delivering for China Wok. It’s the end of the shift and I take my last run. Darren’s about to finish up and we have plans to take a road trip somewhere after work. I park on the side of 22nd Street close to where it merges into I-264. I notice it’s trash day. I decide to knock on all the doors of a small apartment complex and ask if I can take their trash to the dumpster.

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Alarm goes off at 10:55 a.m.

Plain Bagel with Cream Cheese. Orange Juice.

All day shift at China Wok.

A slow Tuesday afternoon.

Five Guys French Fries with Ketchup. Honey Green Tea.

During the down time I exchange conclusive messages with Aysena on Facebook. There hasn’t really been any official clear understanding of our terms. I lay out what’s been stirring in my heart. She takes it with sadness but also with respect.

Ays: “its your choice and i take it, because i respect you, i respect your decision. you were always wise in our relationships. you were leader, a magic stone that used to tell us how to be, and used to gave me breath of life in our relationship. i will always dream about you :*(”

I know our story can’t be over just yet. I mean who knows what will happen later down the line.

Ays: “Robert, if you not sure dont give me hope that will kill me.”

Me: “It is better to not hope and be surprised than it is to hope and be disappointed.”

It rains again today like it has been all week. Today is a schizophrenic kind of rain. Towards the end of the pummeling showers the sun comes out and rewards our eyes with an awesome double rainbow. As I’m driving around I notice the environment and scenery become more vibrant. Everything feels refreshed and beautiful. I’ve always appreciated this city’s character and charm. This urban deciduous forest habitat is my home. 

Double Rainbow (2)(May 21 2013)[ii]

Strawberry Greek Yogurt.

The night comes to a close. I feel satisfied with the day’s workload and payoff. It was just me, Cecily, and Ling in control of the restaurant with no other drivers. Everything went smoothly.


Hot and Sour Soup with Broccoli and Rice.

Watching Into the Wild (2007).

At the storage unit practicing songs.

Cinnamon Toast Crunch.

Sleep 4:30 a.m.

[i] Hope Kills. Source unknown.

[ii] Image by me.

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