Sunday February 19 2012

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Waking up at 11:30 a.m.


Cinnamon Oatmeal with Brown Sugar, Flax Seed, Raisins, Banana, and Coconut Milk. Orange Juice.


All day shift at China Wok.


Aloe Vera Drink.


My mind is cluttered with uncontrollable and hateful thoughts. I’m in a bad mood. Impatient with the idiotic road behavior. But I don’t want to feel hate. It’s strange to think as I get older I would develop actual enemies. I’ve always promoted an all encompassing love and respect for human beings. I still do. The hardest part is when it’s personal. And this has more to do with the person I was forced to run into than it does with the room prank that was played on me last night.


Resorting to using that McDonalds gift card from my dad because I have no time to make lunch at the house...

Fillet-O-Fish with French Fries and Sweet Tea.


Listening to Rush Limbaugh’s persistent criticism against Obama on talk radio.


The rain falls...tremendously blurring the vision through my windshield. And of course we all know what happens when the weather gets nasty, China Wok gets busy. I can imagine the decisions being made in the homes/apartments of husbands and wives or boyfriends and girlfriends...

: “Well honey, what do you want for dinner?”

: “I don’t feel like cooking.”

♂: “And don’t feel like going out in that rain.”

: “Let’s order takeout!”

And so phones ring, the woks fire up, and the engine roars...


Delivering an order on Bay Island near Shore Drive. When it rains I’m always extra careful when walking to and from the car. But I still slip and fall along the pathway. The little girl that was by her dad’s side watches innocently through the screen door. I feel embarrassed. And my leg and hands are rewarded with a few ugly scrapes.


Eventually the rain and orders subside.

Off work and back home.

Egg, Broccoli, and Snow Peas with Rice. Mickey’s.

Fortune: “Always be modest and be proud of it!

Watching 180° South (2010).


Margot wants a sleepover. I convince her to come to my place.

She dozes off to sleep while I sip on Chai Tea and watch an interview with Howard Storm who had a near-death experience that changed his life from atheism to belief in God.


Sleep shortly after 3 a.m.


[i] Book cover (1953). I Amness The Discovery of the Self Beyond the Ego.

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