Saturday April 23 2016
Waking up at 11:30 a.m. It's nice to sleep in.
Ana and I both woke up around the same time. She's in a weird mood.
Steel Cut Oatmeal with Cinnamon, Maple Syrup, Raisins, and Kefir. Yerba Mate Tea.
Before I leave for the gym I check in on Ana in her room. She's wearing her green robe with a guitar strapped on – I heard her singing earlier.
"I love it when you sing that song," I tell her.
She's non-responsive. I reach my hand on her back and start rubbing it gently.
"I know you love me," I say. "Why can't you just admit it?"
Her eyes get watery.
I recite a line from a message she sent me recently, "You said to me once, 'I do love you. I'm just a cry baby sometimes when I feel like I'm lost.'"
"I'm sorry," she says.
I joke about how she's a negative Nancy but she corrects me, "Honest Ana!"
"Yes! Honest Ana!"
Exercising at the Rec. Feels good to be back here getting the heart beat pumping again.
Tuna, Toast with Non-Dairy Cream Cheese, Corn Tortilla Chips with Avocado and Tomato, and Oolong Tea.
Finishing Misconduct (2016).
Spinach and Chive Linguini with Mushrooms and Arrabiata Sauce. Salad.
At the music space to pick up my keyboard. I get caught up playing the drums. My left hand can't grip the sticks completely but it's enough to jam out.
Back home. Working on keyboard patches.
Sleep 3:30 a.m.
[i] Daryll Peirce.
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