Wednesday April 22 2015
Waking up at 11:30 a.m.
Marley Coffee Raw Protein Shake with Strawberries and Almond Milk.
Grilled PB&J Toast. Potato Chips. Honey Oolong Tea. Blueberries. Kumquats.
Teaching lessons at Music Makers.
At the new music space – continuing the process of organizing all the stuff and designing the layout.
Then, to the old storage unit to continue deconstructing my grandma's old piano. I take apart every screw I can find, salvaging all the piano keys and pieces with the piano brand printed on it.
It's been a filling night. My brain is tired from all the thinking and moving. I still have to drop my car off at the shop on 17th Street and ride back home on my bike before I settle in.
Eventually, my wish comes true and the day is officially complete. Meanwhile, I'm deep in thought about my relationship with Ana as of late. I've been so busy with "things", just things all the time – moving out of the old storage unit – practicing in two different bands – teaching lessons – working at China Wok. It's all so overwhelming when I think about it and even more so living in it. I can sense Ana's dissatisfaction. We haven't been sexually intimate in a while. I know it takes two to tango but I wish she'd come onto me a little stronger and not worry about what I'm thinking or my prerogatives – just get what she wants, make her desires known. This week has just been abnormally hectic for me. I write out all my feelings to her in a Facebook message cause it's 4 a.m. and she's asleep.
[i] Images by me.
Posted by James Robert Smith at 2:49 PM