Sunday July 15 2018


Waking up at 10:50 a.m.

MMLIVE rehearsals for the two bands. Drew is sitting this day out because of some serious physical pain they were experiencing. So it’s up to me to keep all this together. It’s a little stressful but I’d say it was a productive day.

Scrambled Eggs. Everything Bagel with Vegan Cream Cheese. Potato Chips. Coffee.

Catching up on stuff, in my head and outside of it.

While running errands, at Whole Foods and Kroger, I experience an oncoming anxiety being around the crowded Sunday grocery rush. Internally, I have an attitude of rudeness that I wish wasn’t there. I find my inner voice reacting negatively to everyone around me. The ebb and flow of my life feels rushed – constantly on the move – forever on a mission to scratch off one more thing on my to-do list. When does it ever stop? I realize I own a business but I don’t have kids and I don’t have a house. I can’t imagine what happens after those two things take form. Overall, I have a problem with patience especially lately. I need to slow down. Sometimes I just want to stop everything I’m doing and leave – head right out of town somewhere far away.

One thing that does give me relief and escape is these Black Velvet Apricots. I offer one to mom and tell her, “These taste like heaven.”

Making dinner: Brown Rice Quinoa Spaghetti Noodles with homemade Tomato Sauce, Mushrooms, Peppers, Onions, Parmesan, and Bread, Sharing plates at the table with just mom and I.

Practicing and tweaking the performance rig at the studio.

Gelato Cone.

Ana and I ride bikes to the oceanfront to burn off some calories and enjoy each other’s company.

Sleep 4 a.m.

[i] Image by me.

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